She Died Before She Lived: How Living With Emotional Abandonment Led Me Back To Myself
She Died Before She Lived
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She Died Before She Lived
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🌿 Introduction
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There's a special kind of loneliness that comes with being the family outsider. The one who sees too much, feels too deeply, asks too many questions. The one who gets labeled as "dramatic" or "difficult" simply for refusing to pretend everything is fine when it's not.
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The first time I tried to explain it, the words came out wrong.
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I kept waiting for the movie moment.
This blog exists for the women who've been told they're "too much"—too sensitive, too emotional, too complicated. For those carrying invisible wounds and fighting battles that others don't understand. If you've ever felt like you're navigating this world without a roadmap, wondering if anyone else could possibly understand your experience, you've found your people.
PMDD & Hormonal Hell
Living with PMDD isn't just about "bad periods"—it's about surviving monthly storms that threaten to tear apart everything you've built. Here, we talk honestly about the rage, the despair, the feeling like you're losing your mind two weeks out of every month. We explore coping strategies, treatment options, and most importantly, the validation that you're not crazy—you're dealing with a real, debilitating condition.
Trauma Healing & Breaking Cycles
Healing isn't linear, pretty, or predictable. It's messy, exhausting, and often lonely work. Whether you're unpacking childhood wounds, processing complex PTSD, or learning to trust yourself again after years of gaslighting, this space honors the courage it takes to face your pain and choose healing over history.
Narcissistic Abuse Recovery
If you've survived a relationship with a narcissist—whether a parent, partner, or family member—you know the particular brand of crazy-making that comes with loving someone incapable of loving you back. We dive deep into understanding narcissistic patterns, recognizing the signs, healing from the mindfuck, and rebuilding your sense of reality after having it systematically destroyed.
Single Motherhood & Solo Parenting
Being a single mom isn't just about doing it alone—it's about carrying the mental load, making all the decisions, and somehow keeping tiny humans alive while you're barely keeping yourself together. Whether you're newly single, chronically exhausted, or struggling with the guilt and overwhelm, this is where we acknowledge that "supermom" is a myth and surviving is actually winning.
Grief & Loss
Losing a parent changes you in ways nobody prepares you for. Whether your relationship was complicated, your grief is disenfranchised, or you're mourning not just who they were but who they never could be for you, we honor all forms of loss. Grief isn't something you "get over"—it's something you learn to carry, and sometimes that carrying looks different than what others expect.
The Black Sheep Experience
Being the family outsider, the truth-teller, the one who couldn't pretend everything was fine—it's a lonely place to be. If you've been scapegoated, excluded, or made to feel like your version of events doesn't matter, this space sees you. We talk about the unique wounds of being different in families that punish authenticity, and the strength it takes to break generational patterns.
These aren't just topics—they're lived experiences that intersect and compound in ways that most resources don't address. Having PMDD while recovering from narcissistic abuse while single parenting while grieving while being the family black sheep? That's not just hard—that's a specific kind of hell that requires specific understanding.
This blog exists because mainstream advice often falls short when you're dealing with multiple layers of complexity. When well-meaning people tell you to "just think positive" or "let it go" or "it could be worse," they don't understand that your struggles aren't simple, and your healing won't be either.
Real Talk, No Sugar-Coating
I don't believe in toxic positivity or pretending everything happens for a reason. Sometimes life is just brutally unfair, and the best we can do is find ways to survive it with our dignity intact.
Intersectional Understanding
Your PMDD doesn't pause for your grief. Your trauma doesn't take a break because you're a single mom. Life is messy and complicated, and so is healing. We approach everything through the lens of multiple, intersecting challenges.
Validation Over Solutions
Sometimes you don't need another coping strategy—you need someone to say, "That sounds incredibly hard, and I believe you." Validation is often the first step toward healing, and it's something many of us never received.
Community Over Competition
This isn't about having it all figured out. It's about showing up authentically, sharing what works (and what doesn't), and creating space for others to do the same.
I'm someone who's walked through the fire of each of these experiences and somehow made it to the other side. Not unscathed—scarred, changed, and still healing—but with hard-won wisdom about what it takes to survive when life keeps throwing curveballs.
I'm not a therapist or a medical professional. I'm just a woman who's been through it, learned from it, and wants to share what I've discovered with others who might be walking similar paths.
If you're here, you're part of a community of women who've refused to be silenced, minimized, or dismissed. Women who've chosen the hard work of healing over the familiar comfort of dysfunction. Women who are breaking cycles, setting boundaries, and redefining what strength looks like.
You belong here, exactly as you are—messy, healing, struggling, surviving, and sometimes even thriving.
This space is for you.
If any of these topics resonate with your experience, welcome. You're not alone anymore.